the things

i dunno where to start. i dunno how to start.

im feeling unwell these few days. i tried to make things easy. tried to be a positive thinker. yeah eventhough it been happened to me since i was 15 and 18 and 21 and 22. so? i should knew this better. and everytime i met the doctor, they will say im fine. nothing to worried. it just di usia mcm ni hormon unstable. ups and downs.

trust me. tak sume dpt rase ape i rase. but yet still alhamdulillah im still alive. im not gonna complaint about this thing anymore. but i just want to say that i sgt frust. totally frust with my self, my body and my thoughts.

these few days i tried to calm down on my own. but ye la. i tried to act like a normal which actually tak la normal sgt kan? so bile dah tak terdaya nak sabar, tak terdaya nak pk positif dan dah tak terdaya tanak emotionally hurt, i cried. i cried to myself. i cried to my life. and i cried because pity me i cant do nothing about it unless dari bersabar.

im all cried out. i frust. i wish i get well soon. i mean fully well.

i luv my life and i will always try to love them even sometimes it sucks